Ching Ming

Dear Justin,

Got my pressie?? Saw my baby neo?? Nice not? Pretty not?? U like it?

That's what I wanna ask you.

Thanks to Fatty for bringing me to Nirvana. Though I'm not easy to recognize that road, but at least I did make my effort to drive Baby Neo to meet Justin.

It was last sunday, I bought stuff for Justin. Esp MONEY! I know he might need money more than anything. Even bought a set box of mobiles for him. That set mobile is not bad. Got Sony Erricson, which include high-tech 3G. Goodness. He can show off to his buddies liao. Somemore, I did bought Cig from 7-11 for him. Know he likes Marlboro filter, but ..nah... I prefer him to smoke light.

Drove to Nirvana, took me... I also forgot how many hours to reach there. Countless. But who cares? At least we're safe arrive there and I can meet him - that's what I hope for.

I light up the colok and later on, burn the packaging for him. Fatty helped me out. Both of us wore black, and it's sux. Weather was pretty hot. Burn man.


Justin, Smoke Less, Your Fren.


Justin, I Miss You, Your Fren







Making sure everything was really burn to ash.

After everything was done. Fire slowly to subside, fade off. I began my path to walk to Justin's ash place. Fatty went out to buy some drinks (since there is NO SHOPS! Just ice-cream man). I talked to Justin for quite some time.

Bi, did you hear me? Did you really sees me? I wanna talk with you alot lot more. But there was a small child standing next to me, talking with you. She might think that I'm talking to walls like those insane person. Luckily she not tell her mommy saying "mummy, mummy... you see this jie jie. She talk with the dead people. Can we do that the same to grandpa and grandma??" Hah!

Full of joy.

Full of sorrow.

Seeing you left me behind far far away from you. Away from your distance. How long can I keep on going without you by myside? It hurts alot. Though I told myself I have to let you go, bits by bits. But can I?

You know, r'ber once we watch Shutter - the thai version in Maxi? Well, you were pretty afraid of what you saw. And since there is English version, I tot I might enjoy myself with fatty (which I bought him the other day to meet you) and hoping you were there right beside me enjoying the movie together. But were you there that moment?

I hold my tears not to cry. Just have a rough talk with you. But before I left, Before I close the door right infront of your face. I stare at your picture for not more than 10secs and I begin to cry. I dunno. Somehow tears just drops and starting to flow like rives. I try hold back, but couldnt. And kept asking you, WHY THE HELL YOU LEFT ME???

It's so pain you know. We share everything. You're the one who still keep in touch with me since we graduate. You're the one who willing to help me in photoshop. You're teh one who always there to cheer me up, fuck with each other, slam each other. But now? Where are you?

You really giving me a hard time. Been 2yrs you left. Your age still younger than mine, and it will never be change. IS SO UNFAIR, you know???????

But after visiting you. We went to you mother's place. You mum, OF COZ still cant forget about you. R'be rthe small baby boy you like to be with him? He grew adi. He's in kindagarden now. He's shy and cool when he 1st met him. I kept saying helo, hie, helo to him, but you know what I get at last? ZERO. He aint making friends with me. Nor smile or at least say Hie to me. None.

Your mum gave me see your baby photos. Even the time you attend for your 1st sista wedding day. You look cool. Aint smile also. So, when I flash back my dreams which you surprisingly gave it to me. I am PROUD OF MYSELF. Which you gave me a dream I cant forget. The way you actual smile at the camera. It's the most beautiful and chariming face I ever see, that even glow behind you. Is such a fairytale.

Somemore, after an hour and half. That small boy started to come near me. Taking out his books, flipping pages to let me see. Showing me that he's intelligent and have LOTS OF STARS AND A'S. He's clever boy. He luv to colour stuff as well. His skills are not bad. Your mummy say, everyone in the house aint like him, xcept for you. Cuz u will always protect and be always beside him and give all your love to him. Now, you're gone. He have no place to for a cry shoulder.

He's cute. Adorable. He took out toys from his room. One by one he's taking out his plush toys, vehicals, everything. Showing off to me that he got lots of stuff to play. AKA. Even I saw the Chicken Little was on top of the rak. I told your mum that we bought it together with wykie at Mc.D. Buy 2, but instead that stupid waiter gave another one. Means we have total of 3. One of us own one. And my chicken Little is still with me.

Your mum say, she's ok especially if the two children were there with her. Cause children can bring laughter and make the environment go messy. Oh ya. Ah Bi got one little bro. 1yr and half if not mistaken. He's same as you. Like to ban leng leng. His mum say, if he aint wearing any nice baby tee, he will not go out and will stamp around to have better clothes putted on. He's fashionable.

But if the two children were bought back to d'sara. Then your mum will starting to think of you. Cause you're the only child who can bring happiness to your family. Your mum even say you wanna pierce your ear and tattoo your body (and I know you envy of my tattoo) and guess what? She's regret that she didnt let you do it. She say, she suppose to let you do whatever you want. So, hope you wont blame your mum ok. She loves you deep down. Only sometimes you cant see it right infront of your eyes.

Your mum got ask me whether you have GF or not. And I started to tell her your story regarding you wanna tackle the gurl, who work at the bra shop. I r'ber you said you accidentally saw her changing her bra, and you looked EVERYTHING! Shit la. Your air liur is still dropping.

Well, your mum knows taht u fancy this girl alot. Even the girl tell you to smoke less, and your mum say it's good coz it's for your OWN GOOD. But I still r'ber that your mum forbid you to have any relationship with her since she's born under tiger and you're under boar and it's aint gonna merge together. But I sees your mum is fine with that girl oh?!

Anyway, it's past.

And another news is. WHY i'm not having any lump or breast cancer huh????? How come? I wish to have it. I wish to die slowly. I wish to leave this world quitely. But why GOD aint granting my WISH? Sometimes I'm sick of my life. The everyday doings. I wanna get over it. I've been talking and blogging and bubbling since I was young, till now. Anyhow, I'm having a slight operation next month. Doc say it's better to take and test some of my inner tissue for double confirmation. Huh. I tot of not going. My mum kept on telling over and over again - XTER DONT THROW THE PAPER!!! XTER NEXT MONTH IS YOUR APPOINTMENT! XTER KEEP THE PAPER PROPERLY. YOU HAVE TO GO CHECKUP TO MAKE SURE OF EVERYTHING.

Nag. How long can I continue to take this? Know she worried la. But she's over worried. But she's a good mum also. She will make one warm marmite for me before I went to sleep.

Kee Fai Is Back!!

Last week I spent my weekends wif my cousin. Well, It's been like ages I've never see him - until recently. Uncle Leong told me that KeeFai will be going over Malaysia for his work transfer and he will be free on weekends.

On last friday, I got his call. I dunno whow as that, cause the sound kept saying "helo, helo helo". I hung up twice. Until the 3rd time, I realize the call is from him. I called him back, since my 016 phone got HUGE problem while listerning.

We met up for dinner on saturday nite. Dad drove to Puchiong and meet up KeeFai at Kee Seong's place. Wow! He's big size with sexy body. When he smile. he looks so cute man! His dimply... My godd...I never imagine he grew up so tall yet so handsome and macho.


Aint they look alike? Like brothers


Ate steamboat near puchong.

Is nice having dinner together with him around. He talks alot. Friendly world. hmmm.. After dinner, Kee Seong fetch him back to the hotel. (But never knew, when he dropped off his mum,they go for drink till 3am reach home -_-")

Anyway on sunday, we meet up again. Coz over the phone, I adi told him that saturday and sunday, my hours he can definately have it. But of coz I told Fatty dat I cant accompany him. (And he reli, reli keep on calling me, asking me where am I?. When I will be going home? Say very boring at home. Wanna have dinner together with me. Miss me alot.) But I cant do anything. I really really need to accompany my cousin.

Even dat sunday, my mum tot of accompany me to the hotel where KeeFai is staying. And dat's make me go out with KeeFai, Kee Seong and Kee Seong's mum. I dont care. I just want to see and chat with KeeFai only. As I said, Is such a long long SUPER DUPER YEARS, I never met him!! He's the only cousin that I like when I was small. And I reli likes his parents alot. Even, me and Uncle Leong will keep in touch via emails. Sometimes chat about our lifes, and he will tell me the next stop of his destination.

But we're late. So I called Kee Seong whether he knows where is KTM at Kajang. But he dont know. Cuz if he knows where is it, den me and my mum can wait them there. Then, I called Kee Seong again. Asked him if he's ok to fetch us from MidValley? And he's ok with it.

If not, me and my mum willbe late. As discussed, we supposed to reach KeeFai's hotel at 11am. But couldnt make it. So reached there quite late adi. So sorry~ All my fault...

Anyway, we got in his room and waited for him to ban leng leng zai zai. Looking out from his window, can see ang mo wear bikini de. One of that gurl is sexy. Hmphh...

Before heading to Kajang, we stopped at China Town to have our light breakfast. Ate Wantan mee, wantan and popiah. Then head to Kajang to "bai san" for grandma, grandpa and uncle meng. I neva pray for Uncle Meng, until dat sunday. Peac be with them...

Next,we have satays. Chicken, Beef and Mutton. Delicious!!!!!

And ... head to 1utama for shopping. Well going in some of the shops, until G2000. Ahem.. He likes those shirts very much. And that 3 shirts cost RM300++ and with pants is like almost RM400+ For me, IS SUPER DAMN XPENSIVE. But he told me is ok since after he converted the changer.

He even bought one earing for his GF back there. Asking my opinion, I directly say "yes". Is very nice. From Giordano. Somemore got warranty lifetime. So is worth buying. While walking, he says he wanna go to FCUK. WOW! FCUK is damn XPENSIVE also. GOD DAMN XPENSIVE. And he told me, he can buy me one if I see the clothes I like.

NO WAY MAN! If I like also I wont tell him. Coz is xpensive. But I saw one pink transparent bag. Cost RM80 (with no discount T_T) Very nice. (coz I luv transparent stuff) Hope can half half with fatty. Else, hope to wait it drop and got discount ner. Another thing. KeeFai ask me to wear a jacket at FCUK. Is nice. But the size is quite big. I said, If I wear and doesnt suit me but it suit his GF then? He said something like - dont worry. Her size is just same like you. Same height with u also. (Ok, now I happie, coz got ppl same same tall and thin think with me; which means I'M NOT ALONE). But the jacket aint fit me. BUT IS NICE. Comfy when wearing it.

Faster faster walk out from that shop. But before that, I got told him. I will be very happy if he were to treat me dinner later on. :D

On the center of the area, got Osim, PAPA. I ask aunty and my mother to seat on the sofa to have a slight massage. Is FREE. So, on another side. Is for massaging legs. Wow.. SONG LEA!! So comfortable. Sat like 2-3minutes. Very very high...very song...

Next stop will be the Lacoste. He saw one sling bag and ask me to put it on. Be his model again. Well, he just wanna make sure it fits perfectly to his GF. But after he bought the sling bag, he lor lor luin for the handy bag and ask me

KeeFai: Which will your boyfren buy for you? Sling or the handy wan?
xter: My boyfren never buy any bags for me wan
KeeFai: Just - as which you prefer and likeable?
xter: If me, I prefer the pink one (pointing at the pink bag infront of the opening entrance)
KeeFai: So, which wan?
xter: Okok.. I will go for the handy wan. Coz sling bag is abit outdated lor. Somemore this sling bag is for sporty type.

He's been thinking awhile, and he go change it. And you know how much it cost? RM400+ Where else the sling bag is RM200++. MY GOD! I wanna faint liao. I should bring him go Pasar Malam and buy lots of bags for his GF then. Just estimate the cost per bag is like RM50 and he can buy 4-6 nice bags instead of one branded bag. Aduiii... If I'm his mother, I sure very heart break wan. But, if he seldom buy things for his GF, den it's reasonable also lor.

So at nite, we ate vegetarian. KeeSeong ask me am I ok with it. I say no problem. Of coz I no problem ya. Cuz vegetarian I also can eat. Where else, if I dont eat, my aunty will be starving. Where can I be selfish for myself right? I can eat anything I want. But...the restorant IS NOT BAD! I luv the curry and the prawn. Is very nice. That's why I finished up my bowl. Yummy. I'm full dat day and KeeFai treat us for the dinner. Thanks alot KeeFai and Thanks alot Kee Seong for fetching us and treating me and my mum for dinner :)


xter and Kee Fai


F L 2 R: xter, Kee Fai, Kee Seong

On monday, KeeFai SMS me. Asking for my house address saying he got something from Australia but was left at his boss place. So he will ask his colleague to send to me. While, he will departing on dat same day at 9.50pm. Around 5.30pm, his colleague called me up. Asking where I work and can he have my address so he can drop by the stuff for me. I smsed to him and sms againt o KeeFai. Telling him I will call him at 8pm like dat. I reli clueless what he's going to send to me although is something very important. Chatted with him over the phone while having dinner together with Fatty for like 6mins like dat. I dunno whether will be double charge or not, since he's using australian line when he arrived at malaysia. And thanks alot to Fatty coz he helped me to reload. Love him lots.

On monday nite. After my OT, I told mum that KeeFai will be sending us something. My mum say, izzit the pink bag? I say no la. Is from aussie de. So if his mum call us up, just say that we got the gifts from KeeFai ya.

No news from his colleague on tues and I dont bother quite much. Might be he's not free. KeeFai chat wif me via MSN to ask whether I received it or not. I say not yet. And I told him what was inside the bag? He say, just something from australia for my parents. FOR MY PARENTS ONLY? How about me? Can i take some? he say, if it suits u, den u can have it also. Haha. Just KDIN.

On wed noon, his colleague called me up and I met him at 7-11. The 1st thing when received the bag; I WAS IN SHOCK! Full of SURPRISE which I never xpected him to buy me that gift. MY GOODNESS - That was what I said in my 1st words. I reli reli never expect him to buy me that pink bag.

My heart was totally confused. Confused in the sense of happy and in a shock which full of big beautiful surprise. I thanks the man. Even asked him izzit he helped my cousin buy or? And he say, my couin buy than ask him to deliver to me. MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!! I'm totally speechless man. Too xcited, yet too happy. 1st thing 1st, I called fatty to share my joy. I was over happy.

At nite, I saw him at MSN and ask him how come he bought it and say thanks alot to him. Infact, I should say thousands of millions thanks to him. He told me on monday he got all the time, and he went to pavillion. And he saw this brand, got in the shop and bought for me - thinking that I might like it. Infact, I LOVE IT ALOT. I told him why did he buy such an xpensive gift to me as I already satisfied with the dinner. And he said "Not expensive when I only see u once in 15 years! Anyway, as long as it makes u happy!"


This is the Pinkish bag I was taking about :)

and ...

OF COZ I'M HAPPIEE!!!

THANKS KEE FAI!!!!



THANKS ALOTTTTT LOTSXZ MORE..

Another thing. Dunno is consider bad or good news to me lea? Maybe no news? Haha. It's like this. Last three days, after my work I took a bath and I find out there's a lump at my right breast. It's not that big nor tiny or small small one. Just like some kind of rounded stone like that. I told fatty and my mum about it. And she decided to take me to hospital on monday. I was like - what? so fast???? And she shut me down in one word - If You're having lump or breast cancer, is a serious matter.

Okiez. fine. I took leave and give boss approve. Even Nicole, Rachel and Fong Yuen chatted wif me over this. Mainly Nicole gave me alot of information. She said, it might be the tissue inside our breast is getting harder and not fully grown. Need to massage alot so the lump will go off. That's what she told me when she face the same problem. She even advise me to go see doctor also. Incase.

Well, nothing I can do actually. If reli have breast cancer or anything which is negative, I also kenot do anything right? Die, sure one day will die de. If now not die yet, sooner or later also will meet the death line. So, what's the different between die now and later?

I dun wanna press anymore la. The more I press my breast to feel the rounded lump, da more I get pain.

Die mai die lor. Hoping to meet Justin aslo. Dunno lea. Somemore I wish to have cancer few years back adi. If reli have, den my dreams come true. But when my mum talk wif me bout breast cancer and will die la.. or this and dat la, then I worried bout just one thing.

HOW I WISH I GOT INSURANCE!!!!
So my family wont be stress over it.

Anyway, see how la. Life still goes on... that's what everyone says.

Memories

Anyone who did this like what I did as shown below??

It's kinda like SHUTTER feel. 2 combination into 1. But it's fun. At 1st Fatty asked me to weigh, see whether I got put on some weight or not. Well, still da same for me. 43kg.



Aint this sweet? 1st time I timbang timbang together. Though abit childish la. This I know also. But at least I try one time ya...Hmmm...



(From Left: MC Choc Ice Cream, Right: My Asam Boi from De'Pastry)

And this picture above... Fatty buy and make those cute cute happie pictures for me. I tot the ice cream is he make fun of me, cause that day I was wearing specs and (actually I phobia when wear specs infront of him, since got one day, I OT gau gau..den my look very "chan" and he call me aunty look >.< ) I tot he draw and gip me see that IT WAS ME. But nope, he say it's FATTY LAI DE... Weee....heheheheh....

Then the Asam Boi drink... Hmpph... I saw the pictures I oso lam lam dei oredi.

3rd thing, since I'm still wearing the ring which John gave me on 2005, Fatty no "song" when see that I wore it. I told Fatty, it's actually my ring lai de. Yup, if for him to wear back ex stuff, I volcano oso mari belanda liao. haha.

Anyway, will dedicate one to him:-


Hope he likes it (^^,)


Fatty and Xter @ at genting,
after fatty fixed his colleague car at genting also.

数到五答应我

Gary - download
数到五答应我
shu dao wu da ying wo- cao ge
Promise me on the count of five

This was introduce by fatty when he accompany me stay up OT alone at nite. Not that he said introduce la. But he told me he like this Track 2. He said, when the 1st time he saw this MTV/song at Astro, he suddenly think of me (though I'm not his gurl dat moment)

As I'm those busybody type, I listern quitely when I was alone in the office the next day. Keep on repeating the track again and again - as it was sang in Mandarin Version. Sooner or later, I fall for this song and had the intention to find the lyrics.

Since fatty logged in my mac that time, In the past history, I tracked down that he also finding the same lyrics - but of cuz, it was written down in Mandarin. So, I copied down the Chinese text and try hard to find the translation for this song.

Now I know what's the meaning behind it. Hmmm.. So lam....
(or is he trying to impress my heart??)

Pin Yin
di yi ci kan zhe ni jiu wei ni xin dong
cong ming de wo zhen neng rang ni zou
di er ci kan jian ni wo jing ran shi kong
shi wo de cuo qing ni yuan liang wo
di san ci kan jian ni xiang yao gao su ni
wo zhen de ai ni shi zhen de ai ni
di si ci kan zhe ni wo you xie yao jiu
qing ni neng gou an an jing jing de ling ting

yi. rang wo bao hu ni
er. rang wo zhao gu ni
san. suo you de yao qiu bu neng dang zuo you xi
si. jie shou zhe ming yun
wu. yong yuan bu fen li
shuo ni yuan yi
na zui hou yi ge yi ding yao shuo ni yuan yi

Want be your lover want be your man
wo zhi yao ni kai xin duo yi dian
wo zhi xi wang gei ni duo yi dian

Can you be my lover don’t wanna be your friend
gei ni xing fu dao yong yuan

gei ni xing fu mei yi tian
ying wei wo Want be your lover want be your man
shuo ni hai pa ying wei shou guo shang
bu xu yao hai pa ying wei wo bu shi ta


Translation
On our first meeting, you moved my heart
If im smart, how could I let you go
On our second meeting, I actually lost control
Its my fault, please forgive me
On our third meeting, I want to tell you
I really love you, really love you
On our fourth meeting, I have some requests
I hope you can listen to me, quietly

One. Let me protect you
Two. Let me take care of you
Three. Don't take my request as a game
Four. Accept this fate
Five. Don't ever leave me

Say 'I do'
Lastly, you must please say you do

Want be your lover want be your man
I only want you to be happier
I only hope to give you more

Can you be my lover don’t wanna be your friend
Give you everlasting bliss
Give you bliss everyday

Because I Want be your lover want be your man
You are scared, because you've been hurt
Don't be afraid, because I'm not him

Speechless

At 1st I was very unhappy of what my bro did to me. Cause it was xcited when I heard that he's going to Singapore and inviting me go along also. But never know that yesterday we went out for a drink, he told me his cousin, his cousin's soon-to-be wife and another one called Ken will be joining us for the Singapore trip. I was super upset as I planned to go Singapore for so so so LONG!

Anyway, when I got to work this morning. I changed my MSN title regarding bout the Singapore trip was cancel. Super unhappie. Even one of my fren gave me a note that where and where the place I should go when I arrived at Singapore. Totally blown out.

Nicole chatted with me. I was DUH... But even I told Nicole no need to tell Lou that I was unhappy because I failed to go to singapore, but she still go and tell Lou. And dat time I was having my dinner at Andy Restorant - there's my phone ring and my bro asked some questions and den lead to Singapore matters. From what he told me, he tot that KEN (my another god bro) will be going, and that's make no seat for my fatty. Haih... But now since Ken not going, so Nam can squeeze in and I still can make it to Singapore

HOORAAAY!!! Super thanks to Nicole anyway.

Hmmm..besides, because yest I was upset, I blow everything to fatty over the phone conversation. My voice sounds down.

But guess what?

I'm having OT btw. And he dropped by to accompany me since I'm rushing to do my website. But he went off afterwards to join his friend at KIP area for a drink. But before he left, he told me one thing that he wanted to book the travel to Pulau Redang on July. I told him, July beach is aint good. Then only I know the reason why he wanna book on July. Coz our Burfday falls on that same month! Aint he sweet??? Even besides that, he called me this afternun to let me know about the Cameran trip since I cant make it to Singapore. But now, I got the chance!! Wah lao..very da happie....

Anyway, I haeve lunch with my ex today. I neva knew he would called me for the 1st time to have lunch with me, since he's working nearby my work place. But ever since, I will tell fatty that John came and find me lunch. At least a notice to let him know, dun feel like wanna hide something to him. I know is bad la to have lunc wif my ex, especially for this ex because of him, I've been really down for over a yr and a half. Hearing that he have a gurlfren on Jan, I started to let go of him and continue my journey without turning back. I'm brave!! Yeah!

Until then I met dou, following by fatty. Fatty might over worried when I told him I lunch with John. He somekind like phobia abit. But, yea..is normal to have this kind of phobia. If for my situation, ahem! He gonna eat shit!! hahaha...

Well, while eating lunch with John, neva knew he still remember many stuff between me and him. I totally forgotten some of it, until he reminded me. I told him to forget everything that me and him were together, but he told me that not everything that can be erased. He even asked me to be his gf back and will gip me phone and sub one credit card for me to use. Well, when I'm with him for the year and so, he really never used my money. Infact, he spends on me but usually the things I wanna buy, I buy it from my own pocket money. Dont feel like using his money to buy my own stuff.

Besides, he suddenly talked about the gold ring which he gave me on 2005. I neva notice he wore that ring. Then he told me one part that when he with his gurlfren that time (after i broke up wif him a yr ago ltr) his gurlfren is not pleasant when seeing him wear that ring (which john did mention to her gua about the ring). I told John, since if his GF is not happy bout the ring, he can either throw it away or put it aside. If for me, I oso will turns unhappy to see my present boyfren wearing RING of the PAST. Who will happy right? But he told me back, is just a ring wut. But hey, It's consider my RING you know. Coz he bought for me and I gave him back the ring.

Anyhow, I accidentally wear it until i got back to office and found out that I'm still wearing it. So I msgs him:

xter: Hey Ur ring arr...
John: Oh...yalo...how?
xter: Den ar throw away lor?
John: Throw u la...dun throw my ring....either gv u wear 1st...ok?then u owe me
xter: U dare throw me mea? Wahaha. K la. Next time gip u bek.
John: K...

Really makes me wonder, how come he still wants this ring kinda badly?? Well, just me and him know what's the reason. Plus nicole also. And also, he still say he still keeping those pictures we took at bangkok. Well, this pictures... I got told him before when I break up with him. He can throw it away if he wants to. Or if his gf dont like, he can throw away also. But neva know, he told me he still keeping it and his gf doesnt know that time.

And he kept saying - something like, how good if me and him were married that time and we will be still couple until today. Well, past is past dear. I dont know what to do when he told me bout our past together, bringing me to see justin, been there alot when I need him the most sometimes (not on justin case of cuz).

Who can help me to overcome this??

C18 - Bangsar

Since friday I was having a huge headache, I took rest after a half day leave. Charging my energy and hoping that I might get well before night falls. Fatty did ask me to stay home, and he wouldn't be going to the Bangsar Nightclub. But since promised has been made, why not and give some support to Fatty's fren - Cindy who took part in the contest of modeling.

Fatty fetched me after work and off we went for our dinner and back to Onn Zai house which he insist in fetching us go and back. Sei Mou! Cause if Onn Zai fetch, sure will go back home very late de. Hmphh...

Besides fetching us, there was a guy named as B - which stands for BOY (Sorry Dude, I forgottten your name. Izzit Ah Liang or Ah Leong??? I've totally lost his name) and at the first sight, I aint click with him - until we got in the NightClub which known as C18, and he will bring out some conversations. Otherwise you will be bored to dead man!!!

I was pretty scared for Onn Zai actually. Is like eveytime he ask Fatty to join them clubbin, and Fatty dont wanna go. MEANING - HE THINKS I LOCKUP FATTY, which is not true. Kesian me. But never know in the NightClub, he's quite friendly person. Even me and fatty went kissing and hugging each other - giving the most SPECIAL LIGHTS to both of them. Bad huh we??

Here - Onn Zai and BOY. My Goodness, they look alike couples.

And 2nd thing, if any one who got friends which born in the rabbit year, PLEASE, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!! Cause both of this brothers is fighting for their love over the Rabbit Year.

Main thing is not aboutUS. Is about CINDY! She got in the TOP 20 and out of TOP 20, she got into TOP 15 and to TOP 5. IS SO AWESOME!! Should see how beautiful she was. Even, she got the most ASTONISHING name as the model. Really really happie for her...






*I like this looks da most. (da one wif the tattoo on her arms)








CONGRATULATION CINDY!!!

As for the PRINCESS, Well since she called as PRINCESS - meaning she is the TOP. But this aint fair. She's the MC's SISTER!!! Is so cheating and so fake.

"san ban" around 2.30am. Onn Zai was way too blur in driving, so BOY drove his car and Fatty falls asleep at my shoulder. I should take his picture that time. He sleep like a baby. When the time he going to fetch me back, he drive so slow and the way he drove - he look excatly like a TURTLE! Wahahahhahahahahahahahahahha........

Is not that he drive until like a turtle, but is THE WAY he driving. Hunch back. Blur Blur. Uncle Look. Haha. I did ask him to have a sleep 1st, cause is way too dangerous when he drink and drive. But he say he can manage it. Well....

Even when he dropped me off, I was hoping and praying he would arrive home safetly. Hoping for his call, and finally the ringtone came. Wishing him good night and ...

AND the next day, I drove him to work and back from work. Funny is - when I fetch him back, he look hyperactive. He keep reading the SMS which I store under his name in a folder for more than 350++ SMSs but under 400. While reading those past SMS which he sent to me, he will laugh at it and finally he said "why last time I like to zing gu u wan?" EXCUSE ME, Ask Yourself la! Even got one time he SMS me saying "dont want choi you". Ok lor. Dun choi la. I nothing wan de. But in the end, he give me a call and talk wif me. ADUIII... Say dunwan CHOI me, but come and ring me up. C Boh!

Sometimes I will think, how come I like this guy huh? I use to hate him alot, but now.. erm..........

++and here's the kitten from Fatty's house. Supposed to have 4 kittens, but the other one went missing++



mother cat @ ker lian (means pity in mandarin)

Heavy Head

Supposed yesterday going to Aloha for farewell for Devi's colleague friend. I was unsure when I will be back home, as there is alot of job rushing. Eventually the time was cancelled, as I'm having OT, Fyuen not free and Georghe was not free also. Well, hope can have dinner together again when everyone is free.

Sinced the clubbing was cancel, and fatty asked me whether am I intrested to go to the Taman Ehsan Pasar Malam. I tot of having a rest, but since he told me that he going to take his cousin out, well - of cause I wanna have a look at his cousin :: and since he said that his cousin is quite handsome!!

After bath and everything, I went to the kitchen to have some bites on the chicken wings which mum dar bao from Pizza. I ate two ot it and drank herbal soup which mum prepared for me before I'm going out. Never knew, I got headache. Strong head pains that makes my body unbalance to walk. I lied down on my bed and about 2-3minutes, I woke up and try to walk again. To my dissapointment, the heavy pain didnt go off. I thought, might be my contact lens which makes my head heavy and pain. So I decided to take it off and wear my specs again. But ... IT'S STILL THE SAME!!!

Gosh.. I called up fatty and told him not to come. From 8pm, I slept till 5am in the morning. And I continue to sleep until 8am, till fatty give me a wake up call.

Once woke up, I just feel abit dizzy and tot - I might be alright today. It's better than yesterday. Drove to work, and suddenly...my headache came back after I got out from the washroom. It was like 12pm dat time. I took a short nap, and been turning my body left and right, till my head get from bad to worst. OH GOD!!!!

When June going out for lunch, I told her not to pack-back anything for me as I might leave the office - having half day leave later. After few minutes she left, I force myself to wake up and walk to my car and drove to the clinic. Head still so heavy. What has happened to me? I asked myself.

Before that, I called fatty that my headache strikes back and going to see doctor later. He didnt offer to bring me go to see doctor also. And it was his lucnh time. My goodness. Nevermind la, I still have Baby Neo, and it can still take care of me. I pray to myself, hopefully I dont meet any accident. I cant turn my head or watever, I can onli see the front and by using my side mirrors. Cause once I turned my head to right or back, my headache attack back and giving me alot of god damn pain.

Reached Dr.AW. Luckily it aint many patient over there and by 5mins, My name was called out. I told doc what has happened to me. He told me that there might be 3 reasons of having headache.

1. Stress
2. Lack of Sleep
3. Menses

Then he asked me, are you having your menstruation now? I say yea. So it might causes it. I feel relieves when I got the answer. Doc say is normal sometimes when women is having their period and he gave me medi of coz. Besides, I told him - izzit I'm having low blood sugar? Doc say it's impossible, but I still wanna have a test of it. Asked for how much if testing for blood sugar, he said only RM5. Ok. I take it. After a light poke at my middle finger, seeing how he operate stuff, and the result was out - saying I'm normal. No low or high blood preassure.

How come har?? I want to have low blood preassure!!! So dat I can have feed myself into sweet world!!!! I DEMAND TO HAVE LOW BLOOD PREASSURE - pleaseeee.... I luv sweetening stuffffffzzzz... Slurpss.s.. Yummy...

So, carefully drove home and mum been worried about me. Reached home, I called fatty and later on, I sms to him saying " Haiya, if i know i'm half day off 2day, i can c my lessbian show!!!" And you know what this small baby fatty replied back? He said "Then u now go my hse take la..."

Doink!!!!

I'm here almost faint faint and numb numb, he still tell me go to his hse and take. Haih.. He supposed to reply me back by saying "you go and have a rest 1st la dear, when you getting better, I still can accompany you to watch it". See la. He totally different from Gab. At least Gab can say some sweet words to lam Nicole. Adui... Two different world...

Maybe just now I should drive, then bang my Baby Neo with others branded and imported car and if Fatty knew, I wonder which one he will worried the most. My life or The Imported Car. Or izzit he going to blame himself for telling me to get it from his house??

No one will know the answer - even not for me. Some might say, of cause he care for your life la, you sei soh mui. But - sometimes, when real things happen, it will be in a different story.