Lucky Stage

I'm writting behalf of yesterday ; 19 April 2013 (Friday)

As usual (on previous days / years), my dog Fat-Fat will be barking non-stop as he's telling me "Hey! could you please walk faster, tie me in a lease and take me for a walk. I'm so gonna pee very soon".

But that day, his barking sounds differently and is just a medium range volume of a yapping sound. I know things weren't right. But still, I took him out for his usual morning walk. His speed of walking is just like mine. Slow and not really steady.

After the short walk, we went home and I was about to get ready to go out buying food for mum's breakie. What my dog usually do was - seating at the front gate and will be waiting for me to get home and greet me by barking out loud (as in "WHERE'S THE HELL YOU GO? Cut the crap, did you buy me something nice today?"), wagging his tail.

And that day was different. He did not wait for me to get home. He wasn't at his usual spot. When I opened up my gate, he was there - lying next just to my car.

I felt helpless.

I went to the kitchen and bring out 2 slices of bread. Lucky, he ate all 2 slices.

I kissed him goodbye before driving off to work. I even talked softly while hugging him and said "You will be alright. You have to wait for me to come back. You gotta stay strong fat-fat"

That day, once I've reached office. About an hour and I started to go client's side with my colleagues. Not only that, we have to go to AOT and to media side too to clarified on some important works. By then, about 7pm we stopped by at Midvalley and have our meals that comes with "Breakfast + Lunch + Dinner".

While ordering the food, my mum ringed me up. Saying that the dog vomitted twice and he seems quite weak. So I've told my mum to give him bread instead of solid dog food pedigree.

I wasn't in a mood when I've received the call. My mood goes down. I wanted to go home badly. But in the same time, I have to prepare files to send to the printer. Once I've done my part, I drove home.

I saw Fat-Fat. Lying down.

Seriously, I dont know what's wrong. I might think that he strikes tick fever, which can cause death. But I've been trying real hard to catch his ticks and spend time about 1.5hrs just to search his bodies for ticks and sprayed frontline.

That night, after taking him for his pee and poo, I fed him 3 slices of bread just to tempt him up. And started contd to search for any ticks that I can kill out from his body.

Suddenly, the light turned off.

Blackout again. ugh~

I searched for my lighter, starting to light up the tealights and put near to me and Fat-Fat. I accompany him from 11pm till 1.15am. I was so tired by then as I need to wake up at 3.30am to prepare myself for a hiking day.

I tried sleeping at the hall couch. But couldnt tuck myself up. The weather was so hot that I started to sweat a little bit. So I walked back to my room, hoping it would be okay. But worst, my room doesnt have window that the air can go in.

WT.....

I've been turning around here and there. Looking at my phone that the time already shows 2.05am. I decided to sleep at the floor. As it might be a little cooler.

I felt nice. I put my phone next to me just incase I might fall asleep deep deep.

But...

Something crawling at my leg. I thought it was just a dust and I swipe it off my leg. But hey...again at my leg. This time I felt is like - somesort of a spider thing. I got a little freaked out and climbed up my bed. Forced myself to sleep.

Despite, USELESS. My alarm rings at 3.30am.

I rested again. Suddenly the light was ON. My fan started to move. Argh! Why now when I was about to get ready?

Duh. I prepared myself. Wear my cons and first thing first, I went to check on my dog.

He sleeping. I thought he was dead. But his body was breathing. I called his name.

Fat-Fat.

Silence.

He slightly open his house. Didn't even move. I wanted to pat him but am afraid he might bite me or something. So I went inside the kitchen again and bring up 2 slice of bread.

I tempt him to get up. Poor boy, he was so lifeless that his hind legs couldn't really stand properly and he tries really hard to balance himself.

I felt really sad.

After feeding him, I hugged him saying he should wait for me to come home after hiking and I will bring him straight to the vet. I kept asking him to stay strong. Stay focus and wait till I come back and he just can't leave me alone here.

I kissed him goodbye before I drove off to Ken's house.

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While hiking (This is 20 April 2013, Saturday), 6.15am my dad called me up. I stopped my step and asked, what's wrong? I know that it might be a really bad news that my dad suddenly called me.

Dad : Xter, Bad News.
Me : Please don't tell me that the dog passed away.
Dad : I think he might be going. His eyes were to dry and is about to close. I think I will just put him inside the bag.
Me : No. Don't. I have to bring him go to the vet later in the morning. Please dont. I will come back once I finished do my hiking. Let me do everything.
Dad : Ok then.

I contd to hike. Till about 7stgh am, we all hike back down and went to my house. I quickly get out from the car and there I saw him - standing and surprised to see me.

I got confused.

Confused in at 3.30am you were there, lying and doesnt want to move. And now, you can at least stand up. I was so happy.

Walked him for his usual morning walk. When he poo, it wasn't solid but abit milky. I know it's not right.

At about 11am, Ken bring me to the vet together with fat-fat. The doc asked me what's wrong with my dog and I told her everything. She took out the thermometer and stuck it at fat-fat ass and told me that he doesnt have fever and it might not be fever then. She started to check on his eyes and teeth and said there's nothing wrong with him except for cataract.

Then I told her about the ticks and am afraid that he might have tick fever (which actually can cause death). After a long conversation with the doctor, she gave me antibiotic and vitamin for fat-fat and also Bactidol for killing the ticks. She even told me that might be the weather of morning and night could make him uneasy. He might be feeling good at the morning but maybe at night, he will be lifeless.

As I've told the doctor that I might be losing him today due to his conditions.

But to see right now. He looks good.

Until, now at night. He been sleeping outside. Doesnt really want to move.

I wish him to get better.

He really can't leave me just like that. I understand he's an old boy now as I have him 10years now and that time he's already that big size. So he might be in 13-14years right now. But he just can't be totally fall sick all of a sudden. It really do frighten me up.

Can I say, I don't want to prepare for his leaving? I don't want him  to leave me now :(

But still, thanks for everyone who helped me to wish for my dog fat-fat so he can get well soon and have his normal health back. Thanks to GOD for answering my prayers too.

Thanks alot!

I.N.S.T.A.G.R.A.M

I remember that I started Instagram when my colleague told me to play it on the same week that I've received a free Iphone 3GS from my sista. And that was also when I started to play as the pictures turned out to be analogue lomo.

Then...I started to upload or snapping things ...

And I quited playing with it.

I quited playing alot of things ever since I started myself as a workaholic girl. Eventually, I felt myself so blue. So boring. And once, I saw someone taking all black and white scenery. It was beautiful.

And then on, I started myself to play instagram back with only captured colors but turns everything into black and white and yet, using some other apps to support my contrast and brightness before uploading it to my own Instagram.

I've even changed my quote to "black black black white".

But I wasn't that satisfied yet, as there's still some color images that I took over my past days. I was so laxy to delete it. But hell yea, eventually I successfully deleted everything of the colors that I've mentioned earlier and now my insta turns out everything nohing but black and white only.

Just a short one. I snap only things I like. Things I would like to share to the others. Things that I think is great while sharing. :D

And I've changed my quote to :

Life is always full of colors
b.u.t
Let's treasure the colorblinds
that only sees
"Black and White"

So, here's my name - xter67 :)
Happy Instagram, Peeps!

Fake Masked Friend is the Disaster of all

Only from today, I know what is the meaning between a TRUE friend and a FAKE MASKED friend.

Well, let me tell you'll a story.

I kinda met this person and he was superb nice. When he was free and nothing much on hand, he will try asking for some task so that he can make himself a lil bit more busy, rather doing nothing at all. Well, this is good. He even learn alot of things from my experience and I shared with him so he could understand what I'm actually earning for my living. Sometimes, we also exchanged some brilliant ideas, laughed, quarrel, back to normal, laughed and repeating all over again and again.

We were so close enough that I can actually said we met almost everyday a week. I don't think nowadays friends will be meeting friends often unless they are lovers or colleagues as they might stay together or work together.

But this is different. The feeling with him was just nice. I don't expect more from him and I continue to like him being just next to me. My feelings grew stronger and stronger after a week passed by weeks. I just wish he could just continue like that.

Things started to loosen up and making it a big gap. I wanted to fill something up between the gap to make me and him to get back to the normal path where we used to be. But is abit too difficult.

Days after days, week after weeks. I hardly see him as often as I use to see him in a week.

Now? I can only see him like once a week or 3 times for 2weeks if I were to be lucky that day. I prayed so that me and him can be back to normal before I doze of every night.

One day, he invited me to join him for gambling over Genting. I was excited as this is the sudden 1st time he invited me out after for so long. Travelling from a distance to Genting, we talked alot of things that kept us separated. I was thanksful to God as he finally answer my prayers. I'm happy that he was just besides me, right now.

Till...

We enter the Casino.

He told me he was about to give a straight shot of what he have been earning behind my back. He told me to do the same like what he's doing now. I asked him, how much will he going to bet for the 1st and last chance? Seriously. Is just ONE FUCKING SHOT, and is either you win it or walk away without winning anything.

He told me he was about to put in RM10,000.00

WHOAH! That was seriously ALOT. My heart jumped so fast that I almost couldn't breath. I was still thinking whether should I just lend the 10K from someone close with me or just tell him I don't have that big sum of money in my bank.

"Come On, Just Be With Me". That was what he said.

My heart beat still pumping un-usual. I wanted to drop down and pretended I just blackout and fainted. But I just can't do it.

"Come On. We Might Be The Luckiest One Today!!" He speaks up happily while jumping to get over to the table.

In the end, I told him "Nah...I don't have that money with me. I just have ... urm.. RM10.00?"

He laughed at me. I was truly sad. Maybe I should just say I have RM100.00 instead of the cheap RM10.00? Duh...~

"It's Okay. RM10.00 is better than RM0 huh? Come on. Let's grab the table and seats"

I walked behind him. He was so excited about the gambling part. Even if I told him not to gamble, he will just turn his deaf ear and continue to do whatever he wants with his money.

I sat next to him. We picked different numbers over the 60++ numberings at the table. He swapped his RM10,000.00 to the casino chips and straight put to his number that he hopes to win. As usual, I just bet my own bday day and month with my RM10.00.

---SILENTS---

The game is about to begin very shortly. He look more excited than I do. Maybe is because he was betting up all his money or something. I'm quite worried about him yet I hope he wins too.

--- Ding Ding Ding---

The ringing sound represent : No one can bet now as the ball is running.

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The ball stopped.

I quickly looked what the number did the ball stopped. Is quite frustrating when everyone rush to the ball just to see the number where else they actually was strangers that standing behind and not even betting at the table.

Before I could look at it, someone took off my money from the table.

Wait. Not only my, but also taking out the chips that contains RM10,000.00. Which meant, my friend just loosed his GOD DAMN MONEY!

I ignored the ball and wanted to see where was him.

There he was. Standing at the center of the table, hands was at the side of table and his mouth was wide open as seems he's going to give a big cry.

I ran towards him hoping to give a hug or comfort him. But the soonest he saw me running towards him, he yelled at me.

I stopped.

Only I heard him saying "why did you talked so much har?", "why did you fucking bring me a god damn bad luck day today?" "why did I ever got to know you???"

I stoned.

His voice was so loud and sharp. His face was turning so red as a tomato.

But I wondered.

Why?
I am not the one who invited him to Gamble.
I am not the one who asked him to put all his money over the gambling table.
I am not the one who gave him the number he supposed to bet.

I am not the DEVIL, ok?

So why did he just blamed me for everything?

I felt being betrayed.

Just at the moment, I re-flashed back all the memories I had with him. I felt sad that he thinks I'm that kind of person though I just know him for about almost 1.5years.

All of a sudden, I got angry.

I walked straight up to him even he still screaming like a mad dog, but I don't give a fucking face to him.

In a sec, I just knew I slapped him hard at his right face. He stopped yelling but look more angry.

I talked to him, saying : What the hell you yelling in a public for where else you are the one who loose all your money? So, do I need to just pay you "RM9,990.00 as it you just loosed RM10.00 just now which means, you are loosing the same bets with me? SHOULD I?"

And before he could open his mouth, I took his hand, slammed RM5,000.00 CASH at his hand and said "You are lucky to have me which you don't even appreciate. From this RM5K, I have gave you extra and yes, you can just go grab a limo and go back straight to you home. 2nd thing, don't ever fucking placed your footstep right infront of my way. And if you were to saw me 1st before I sees you in future, get the hell right of where I am going"

And I just left the scene while playing Big Bang song from my iphone and listerning it from the earphone.

Now, only I understand. Not everyone can be trusted no matter how good there were. Cause they are just not your family. They can have a beautiful masked at front, but a rotten heart inside their body/ This is just a big lesson I learned from today which I would never forget and forgive him ever of what he have just treated me.

Working Alone in the Office

...Was so BORING!

Hell yea...is damn freaking boring...

There's totally no one...I should have just shot it in 360º to give a proof...duh!

but... in 2nd thought, I think is good too.

I got to play my own korean song...those old korean song I longing to play the whole time, myself a DJ. No one called or ask me things today.

It seems like, I owe the office myself today. Haha!

Whatever, I like it though. And yes, I'm bored nobody to talked to. Both staff was on MC. Both marketing went out. The boss of the office went out and said Bye. Which means, he will not back to the office today.

So, to release my stress... I like doing this ! :>

Home Based Korean Streaming

Was on AL yesterday and decided to bring back the mac from office. Partly, wanted to do up some preparation for the upcoming datelines (due to I don't wanna travel all the way back to the office on weekends - again >___< ) and also backing up some of the output working files. It almost ate up till 75GB of just my client files.

Thinks is gonna takes me weeks to backup. Not only one mac, but two.

OUCH.

Headache.

But, it's good news that we are working good though :)

Somehow, not only that , that I was using the mac. I can at least find references easily and yet watch midnight korean movie too.

Coming across the koreans one, I just recently watched two. One from my iPhone and another one - just today :D

Both movie was introduced by my friend and lucky, I would like to THANKS youtube for having this worldwide function and I can watch it online for free. Ahhh whreeeeee *fly high*

Here this - Speed Scandal. I cried twice over some of the scene. It just so touched. And I bet you would like to watch the little boy who plays GREAT tune over the piano. I've been playing it rewind, pause and rewind again as it's hard to believe his skills was damn good. Well, catch it if you're free.

As for this, you may try continue to hunt for the 2/10 till 10/10 (Is just that easy)

Another is - Spellbound. I cried twice too. OMG. Okok..I'm a cry baby. So what? I get touched over romance, or by anything. But this movie was good. The actor never think about himself but put himself at his girlfriend shoe to think what she was actually struggling to get a happy moment. He rather takes all the strangest creatures (which is the ghost) that climb behind his back rather than hearing his girlfriend scream in a fear that breaks his hearts. Go watch if you're a lover of a romance and horror fans :)

This is a full movie

I recommend it with subtitle. Don't ya worry.

Have a nice day peeps. Nights.

Blog at 1:53am till 2:05am

It's 1:53am right now...

And yes, I havent been blogging for such a superrrr loooOOoooong time. Duh.. I miss to blog so much!! I have so many things to say and yes, previously I said that I will blog about what had happened to me on my last job, but ..

JUST FORGET ABOUT IT,
as I think is damn lame to write such things in almost a year that had gone right now.

Tomorrow I had to wake up.

Sorry. Correction.

Is today, later I need to wake up as to bring mum to hospital again for her checkup. Did I ever mention I hate going to hospital? Not because is dirty or the rude nurses or docs. But, is - I had hard time finding parking. Just last Monday I went there and I had been having 5 big turns in every of the parks just to look for - double parking. And I couldnt find any of it. I even came through a very hard time where those car were parked so close that I almost - kiss their head and ass.

And, not even double park you thought is worst. You cant even imagine that some of the fella parked triple park. FAINT wei~

I don't understand how come the hospital doesnt provide an open land that is for visitors to park. Previously there's one. But I dont know why they closed it. Ishk!

Anyhow...forget about today, as I will pray hard that I will have a parking (hopefully also a double parking space for me).

Actually, I wasnt talking about this :D I wanted to blog out how my life have been.

Hmph..maybe I just continue someday, perhaps?

Another Great Song for a Monday Blue

Is monday.

Though everyone called it as Monday Blue, but for me..is not for TODAY

I repeat. Not for TODAY.

:D

As while downloading Lady Gaga song, One of the guy was opening this song. At 1st, I was like - Oh no...again?? Again of another oldies song?

But...while listerning to the chorus part..I felt this was pretty familiar. I like it alot. But couldnt recall where the song came from. I asked him whether was it from a soundtrack and he said "no". And I said, is it something related to camera? Canon?

And my colleague said, is Nikon?

Bingo!

And straight away we look thru it from youtube.

Here it goes. Happy Listerning:)

And besides, here's the lyrics (if you can't really hear him sing)

Sleep don't visit, so I choke on sun
And the days blur into one
And the backs of my eyes hum with things I've never done

Sheets are swaying from an old clothesline
Like a row of captured ghosts over old dead grass
Was never much but we made the most
Welcome home

Ships are launching from my chest
Some have names but most do not
If you find one, please let me know what piece I've lost

Heal the scars from off my back
I don't need them anymore
You can throw them out or keep them in your mason jars
I've come home

All my nightmares escaped my head
Bar the door, please don't let them in
You were never supposed to leave
Now my head's splitting at the seams
And I don't know if I can Here, beneath my lungs, I feel your thumbs press into my skin again