Dear Justin,
I always trust world could be so small.
Let me tell you this. You will get surprised. Or infact, you knew it and you wanted to surprised me?
While working today, we spoke about Uncle Rama's death. I cry again while having lunch. I just couldn't accept the fact that he have gone and I misses him so badly. Not only that. I cry today, this morning while driving to work. My mind and heart just missed him. I think alot about him for couple of days. I cry for the past few days continuously too.
I remember he bought me a very nice handmade key chain from Sarawak as a souvenir when we all actually have the company trip to Taiwan and I didn't even bought him anything. I feel so bad right now. I kept scolding the rest for being selfish, and I think I am one of them. But Uncle Rama would always remember us no matter where he travels. I feel really bad.
Really really bad.
Really bad that I did not buy him anything on his birthday. That I did not think about buying him anything when I went to company trip twice.
Now... I am part of the Junks, Trash that I mention earlier in my blog.
...
I had to stop. Tears coming down again T______T
And while Penny told me that she was actually quite shocked that his son used Uncle Rama to text her the location of the Nirvana, she told me she immediately cried. I told her I understand the feeling as Justin's family also did used Justin's phone number to text me that he was dead.
While that moment, Mave joined the conversation by saying " I dunno if the Justin you were saying is the same Justin as well".
I looked at him and said "Justin Tham?"
He said, yes. The one that study at Cosmopoint. I said again "Tham Chee Kwan?"
And he said he was not sure about his full name, but is Justin Tham and they used to be best friend in a gang while collage time.
He asked me whether do I had his picture, but I said I dont have it as before he passed away, Friendster was the best thing to play and Facebook is just coming out. But now, Friendster already not existed but replaced with something else. So all the pictures and information was deleted just like that.
Penny then asked, do you guys take pictures or something? Then I told her that moment we don't have Iphone or any nice camera phone. And we never think of taking pictures together. We spend times together.
Mave also told me that he was uncertain if Justin Tham was the same person that I always mention until he remembers he had a friend and he heard news that he was actually involved in an accident at Genting and passed away. Friends trying to relocate him but failed. His house was not at Sentul anymore.
He also mention, that moment Cosmopoint was not doing really good and everyone have been shifted to Go-Academy to study. But due to Justin's financial, he remained at Cosmopoint. He even told Mave to accompany him to finish the course, but Mave decided to move on and went to Lim Kok Wing.
Then I told Mave that it must be him. I told him his surname is quite unique and I dont have friends that have the surname except for Benny Tham (my IRC fren, which I lost contact as well). And I told Mave everything about Justin.
I even cried today while working when talked about Justin. I cried when I plead for Justin to come into my dreams for once, but he gave me 2 memorable dreams I could never ask for.
Mave and friends doesnt know that if Justin had really leave this world. They say they heard news, but couldn't confirm until today they did not know whether is Justin still alive or not. He even mention that Justin did call Mave to go out for a drink, but Mave was busy and said next time. And now, there's no more next time as he have left all of us.
I am happy and surprised that all the while, Mave was actually part of your best buddy. You might have bring something close to you to me so I can feel relief as I always wondering, why is there not many of your friend turns up for your funeral and is CNY really that badluck to attend?
However, I wish you are still up in the heaven and look after your family and have the soul to stay next to me and protect me.
Until...one day, I can finally meet you again.
Showing posts with label Memory of Justin. Show all posts
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Friday, April 6, 2012
Today is the Day
As planned, I told myself that I need to depart from house at 7.30am (due to not stuck at traffic jam or too sunny day)
But late yesterday night, I was watching DVD - 2002.
All the action, the story, it reminds me of you. I always liked Nicholas Tse from the very beginning he acted at Gen-X-Cops. But everyone would be crazeee over Stephen Fung instead. But when this movie - 2002 was released, both of the guy acted together as the main actor. And Stephen Fung will always reminds me about you.
Liked 2002 very much as it was like , me and you were being partners. No, is friends (as what Nicholas Tse voiced out in the end)
Somehow, using my iphone GPS just to get to Nirvana Memorial Park, Semenyih. I finally make it my ownself. Should I just be proud of myself?
I longing to go there all by myself ever since I owe my own car. And finally, here I made it myself.
Reached there about 9.20am. Asked the worker there to open your door. I did not cry, but am excited to see you and start preparing all the chinese joysticks. Asked uncle to give me direction as I am not chinese and I don't do all this things.
But for you Justin (beside my popo), I would do anything for you.
I remember I visit you on the day you were gone. You were sleeping inside the coffin. Closed your eyes. I burst into tears. I felt lifeless.
And your family finally see who I was, that you've been telling them all about me. I saw your mum cried. I saw your dad very sad so does your sisters and brothers.
I also remember that your nephew said "uncle, how come you don't want to come inside and why is there 2 black men standing next to you?"
By then, I wish I am still a kid. So I can see your soul coming back home.
I also remember, asking and praying very hard so that you would come inside my dreams. Each morning I woke up, I felt depressed. There's just blank image of dream and there's related nothing about you. But after few days and weeks later, you gave me 2 beautiful dreams about you. You were the angel. I even got a shock over my dream that I actually met you.
But when I woke up, I felt relief that you were actually hearing my prayers.
And now, even this morning I cried infront of you again.
Been 6years and I just had 2 dreams about you. It's so unfair. I wish to have more. To see how's your life have been all these while.
I know I shouldn't be sad. One of the Uncle told me who am I visiting and how come I came alone? And I told him I visiting a friend of mine. Uncle said, Oh, he must be very important to you and I answered Yes. And Uncle continue by saying "Somehow, you should respect and be thankful to your parents as they bought you to this world, so you can have the chance to meet this friend of yours". And yes, I understand what's that means.
Justin,
You're the greatest guy friend I would never ever can find anywhere. I'm happy that I've actually met you over the tuition center. I'm happy that both of us can make friends at the minute we've just met. I'm happy that one time you saw me seating from end behind at the tuition class and you've invited me to seat next to you. The face, the body language, the smile of yours, I will never forget. Friend of yours told me that you liked me, but both of us knew that we can't belong together. Friend of mine told me that you would be still alive if the day I accepted you, but I know, this is just reasons.
However, even today I spoke to you that I've still keeping the bracelet that you've given me. That was the only present I had before you left me. It happens so fast. So fast that you leave the world without saying a goodbye. Not even to me.
I badly misses you. Each year, each single year I would cry for you. Cry for your life to come back. And in the end of the season, I know you will never be back.
I leaved a note today and marked today's date before I close your door. I hope you saw what I wrote and from today / this year onwards, I might buy a small notepad and will leave a note for you each and everytime I visit you. And end of the note, I will be putting down the date I come for the visit. So, when you're bored at least you got something to read on :)
So, here I am ...
Writting you your chinese name. June told me that I written correctly. You know me, that I don't know chinese. I've tried to write you name on a piece of paper before writting down here. Hopefully you've got what I've sent over.
Please don't laugh at my handwritting. I know is bad :(
There - the chinese joystick is what I've done. Thanks to one of the uncle who taught me how to do so.
And yes, after inviting you to come out to get your things, I started to light up the fire my ownself.
But not forgetting, I've bought you Marlboro Light. Written a note for you too :)
Hope you got this too. I've just ran down to the 7-eleven this morning to buy you as promised.
The fire was started to burning...and burning
And I have to check if everything is really burned out.
There goes everything. You should be received by then.
But late yesterday night, I was watching DVD - 2002.
All the action, the story, it reminds me of you. I always liked Nicholas Tse from the very beginning he acted at Gen-X-Cops. But everyone would be crazeee over Stephen Fung instead. But when this movie - 2002 was released, both of the guy acted together as the main actor. And Stephen Fung will always reminds me about you.
Liked 2002 very much as it was like , me and you were being partners. No, is friends (as what Nicholas Tse voiced out in the end)
Somehow, using my iphone GPS just to get to Nirvana Memorial Park, Semenyih. I finally make it my ownself. Should I just be proud of myself?
I longing to go there all by myself ever since I owe my own car. And finally, here I made it myself.
Reached there about 9.20am. Asked the worker there to open your door. I did not cry, but am excited to see you and start preparing all the chinese joysticks. Asked uncle to give me direction as I am not chinese and I don't do all this things.
But for you Justin (beside my popo), I would do anything for you.
I remember I visit you on the day you were gone. You were sleeping inside the coffin. Closed your eyes. I burst into tears. I felt lifeless.
And your family finally see who I was, that you've been telling them all about me. I saw your mum cried. I saw your dad very sad so does your sisters and brothers.
I also remember that your nephew said "uncle, how come you don't want to come inside and why is there 2 black men standing next to you?"
By then, I wish I am still a kid. So I can see your soul coming back home.
I also remember, asking and praying very hard so that you would come inside my dreams. Each morning I woke up, I felt depressed. There's just blank image of dream and there's related nothing about you. But after few days and weeks later, you gave me 2 beautiful dreams about you. You were the angel. I even got a shock over my dream that I actually met you.
But when I woke up, I felt relief that you were actually hearing my prayers.
And now, even this morning I cried infront of you again.
Been 6years and I just had 2 dreams about you. It's so unfair. I wish to have more. To see how's your life have been all these while.
I know I shouldn't be sad. One of the Uncle told me who am I visiting and how come I came alone? And I told him I visiting a friend of mine. Uncle said, Oh, he must be very important to you and I answered Yes. And Uncle continue by saying "Somehow, you should respect and be thankful to your parents as they bought you to this world, so you can have the chance to meet this friend of yours". And yes, I understand what's that means.
Justin,
You're the greatest guy friend I would never ever can find anywhere. I'm happy that I've actually met you over the tuition center. I'm happy that both of us can make friends at the minute we've just met. I'm happy that one time you saw me seating from end behind at the tuition class and you've invited me to seat next to you. The face, the body language, the smile of yours, I will never forget. Friend of yours told me that you liked me, but both of us knew that we can't belong together. Friend of mine told me that you would be still alive if the day I accepted you, but I know, this is just reasons.
However, even today I spoke to you that I've still keeping the bracelet that you've given me. That was the only present I had before you left me. It happens so fast. So fast that you leave the world without saying a goodbye. Not even to me.
I badly misses you. Each year, each single year I would cry for you. Cry for your life to come back. And in the end of the season, I know you will never be back.
I leaved a note today and marked today's date before I close your door. I hope you saw what I wrote and from today / this year onwards, I might buy a small notepad and will leave a note for you each and everytime I visit you. And end of the note, I will be putting down the date I come for the visit. So, when you're bored at least you got something to read on :)
So, here I am ...
Writting you your chinese name. June told me that I written correctly. You know me, that I don't know chinese. I've tried to write you name on a piece of paper before writting down here. Hopefully you've got what I've sent over.
Please don't laugh at my handwritting. I know is bad :(
There - the chinese joystick is what I've done. Thanks to one of the uncle who taught me how to do so.
And yes, after inviting you to come out to get your things, I started to light up the fire my ownself.
But not forgetting, I've bought you Marlboro Light. Written a note for you too :)
Hope you got this too. I've just ran down to the 7-eleven this morning to buy you as promised.
The fire was started to burning...and burning
And I have to check if everything is really burned out.
There goes everything. You should be received by then.
And yes, I spend half of my day with you.
I stand, and seat, and stand again. Cry, went out to smoke so that my eyes can be distracted by looking at your picture. But my mind imagining about you, and again, I cry all alone again outside. I felt so stupid. So Idiot that I'm the only person who cried.
Hopefully today is the best day ever that you've got me all alone for yourself.
I stand, and seat, and stand again. Cry, went out to smoke so that my eyes can be distracted by looking at your picture. But my mind imagining about you, and again, I cry all alone again outside. I felt so stupid. So Idiot that I'm the only person who cried.
Hopefully today is the best day ever that you've got me all alone for yourself.
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Tomorrow is the Day
Planned to visit you alone for the past few years back. But never have the chance to do. I remember telling you that - 1st thing 1st, when ever I got my car, I will drive and show it off to you (cause you like Proton Satria too) and prove that I can drive, and you can't. I wanted to make you feel uneasy. I wanted to make you hate the world that your life have been treated so unfair compare to the others who actually deserve the place you are seating at right now.
I know I'm more like selfish and kinda curse the rest, but to get you back again, I do anything. Just anything.
It's 6years, 2months, 4days now. Your everything, everything of you I'll still remember. The paper regards on your accident I've kept it properly. Each time I misses you, I would take it out, look at the accident, look at your face, and I burst into tears - alone in my room. And then I wish, wished one day GOD will come to me and asked me : you only have ONE, ONE wish to be grant no matter what you wish for. And I will wish for you, to come back alive.
Sometimes, friends told me that you should have a better life. Told me not to feel sad anymore since it's been years passed off.
Sometimes, friends told me that you have moved on or re-born. Told me to spare you your own time and not tie you up in my heart.
But do you guys know that :
Most of the time, I wish all of this isn't happening.
Most of the time, I wish when I wakes up, I have your missed call or your sms appear at my screen
Most of the time, I wish I bumped you somewhere around Sentul.
But all of the time, I hope you are just right next to me.
Life is unfair. I know it. I know it from the very beginning when I start learning my education. But I never know it could be so cruel, that "life" once gone, it will never returned.
I've just posted one youtube - Let Me Die by Nicholas Tse. Everytime I watched the movie, somehow, I imagine he was you. Whatever the conversation said, I imagine it was you. I imagine I am the black star and I'm the one who supposed to be involved at the accident. Gosh...How the fuck I can bring you back? I really wanted you back, very fucking badly!
I even remembered that any movie that shows between TV2, TV3 and 8TV regards on Nicholas Tse, you would call me straight on my house phone and reminds me to watch my idol. 2002 is the one I liked the most and never get bored repeating the movie. And this time, for so many years, only I realised that "Let Me Die" is really between you and me. Usually I will just like this song, so just Let Me Die. But when I opened up my heart to know the lyrics and the song, I finally understand everything.
Everything was planned according inside the book of life.
YES. Yes, I cry while writing this blog. Cry even more when the music repeatedly played. I just couldn't help it. I know I will cry even more tomorrow. That's why I would rather go alone. Go in the early morning so nobody would see me cry or ask me what happened.
I wanted to spend my time with you tomorrow. And here, I've prepared you the things. Really again, I hope you will received it.
Bought you new suits and polo tee. Don't need you worry as it comes with pants.
Prepared you beers. Carls are your favourite. I know. But, would be better to bring up the rest of the flavor for you too.
I never bought you any chinese games. So here you are, happy mahjong with your new friends.
Dude, I know you always overslept. But maybe you would need an alarm clock? It comes together with a radio. I promise you I will find an Hi-Fi. Just incase, BSB have no any new albums so far, but will continue to keep you updated :)
Oh ya. Found this at the shop. Would tot you might dry for this too?
And also, few more pairs for you. Even sandal for your easy walking. Finally, I found a nike shoe for you. Hope you like it. Will hunt more better one on next year ok?
Again, I couldn't find your Marlb. So fucking sad!!!!! I've asked the guy again and again how come they don't sell it. As I remembered I bought one last pack last year. :(
Here you go. Money for you. Even Ringgit Malaysia with RM50 and RM100. And also China, USD. Renewed your passport. Hopefully you can continue travel around this year. Happy Holiday!
Oh...And Gold Credit Card for you incase you don't bring enough. Will burn more hell money for you next year too.
Lastly, here's the favourite part!
I finally bought you a nicely built house and Toyata Estima for you. With included a driver inside.
I know I'm more like selfish and kinda curse the rest, but to get you back again, I do anything. Just anything.
It's 6years, 2months, 4days now. Your everything, everything of you I'll still remember. The paper regards on your accident I've kept it properly. Each time I misses you, I would take it out, look at the accident, look at your face, and I burst into tears - alone in my room. And then I wish, wished one day GOD will come to me and asked me : you only have ONE, ONE wish to be grant no matter what you wish for. And I will wish for you, to come back alive.
Sometimes, friends told me that you should have a better life. Told me not to feel sad anymore since it's been years passed off.
Sometimes, friends told me that you have moved on or re-born. Told me to spare you your own time and not tie you up in my heart.
But do you guys know that :
Most of the time, I wish all of this isn't happening.
Most of the time, I wish when I wakes up, I have your missed call or your sms appear at my screen
Most of the time, I wish I bumped you somewhere around Sentul.
But all of the time, I hope you are just right next to me.
Life is unfair. I know it. I know it from the very beginning when I start learning my education. But I never know it could be so cruel, that "life" once gone, it will never returned.
I've just posted one youtube - Let Me Die by Nicholas Tse. Everytime I watched the movie, somehow, I imagine he was you. Whatever the conversation said, I imagine it was you. I imagine I am the black star and I'm the one who supposed to be involved at the accident. Gosh...How the fuck I can bring you back? I really wanted you back, very fucking badly!
I even remembered that any movie that shows between TV2, TV3 and 8TV regards on Nicholas Tse, you would call me straight on my house phone and reminds me to watch my idol. 2002 is the one I liked the most and never get bored repeating the movie. And this time, for so many years, only I realised that "Let Me Die" is really between you and me. Usually I will just like this song, so just Let Me Die. But when I opened up my heart to know the lyrics and the song, I finally understand everything.
Everything was planned according inside the book of life.
YES. Yes, I cry while writing this blog. Cry even more when the music repeatedly played. I just couldn't help it. I know I will cry even more tomorrow. That's why I would rather go alone. Go in the early morning so nobody would see me cry or ask me what happened.
I wanted to spend my time with you tomorrow. And here, I've prepared you the things. Really again, I hope you will received it.
Bought you new suits and polo tee. Don't need you worry as it comes with pants.
Prepared you beers. Carls are your favourite. I know. But, would be better to bring up the rest of the flavor for you too.
I never bought you any chinese games. So here you are, happy mahjong with your new friends.
Dude, I know you always overslept. But maybe you would need an alarm clock? It comes together with a radio. I promise you I will find an Hi-Fi. Just incase, BSB have no any new albums so far, but will continue to keep you updated :)
Oh ya. Found this at the shop. Would tot you might dry for this too?
And also, few more pairs for you. Even sandal for your easy walking. Finally, I found a nike shoe for you. Hope you like it. Will hunt more better one on next year ok?
Again, I couldn't find your Marlb. So fucking sad!!!!! I've asked the guy again and again how come they don't sell it. As I remembered I bought one last pack last year. :(
Here you go. Money for you. Even Ringgit Malaysia with RM50 and RM100. And also China, USD. Renewed your passport. Hopefully you can continue travel around this year. Happy Holiday!
Oh...And Gold Credit Card for you incase you don't bring enough. Will burn more hell money for you next year too.
Lastly, here's the favourite part!
I finally bought you a nicely built house and Toyata Estima for you. With included a driver inside.
Previously, you have the red sport car BMW. Tomorrow, you will have this Pink / Magenta Estima. Yes indeed, my favourite color. Since I'm the buyer, you'll have to accept it. But pick me up when I'm about at the front gate of heaven. Used your sport car. I have never had the chance to seat at any sports car (beside baby neo) :(
Wondered, everyday, everynight. When will my time come?
Wondered, everyday, everynight. When will my time come?
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
It's been a while though...
It's night right now. After so long, I am able to open up my blog once again. As I mention earlier, I have lots to update. But each time when I wanna do some blogging, there's things need to rush out.
:(
Somehow, I've slept at 5.15am yesterday night. No! It's morning. It's consider I slept at 5.15am today! And I rushed out the things that need to be prepared. And, here I am. Finally!
Around 4am this morning. It rains. And I've remembered that is Ching Ming month. Damn, flash back everything again while working. Yes, Indeed I misses you - once again. What can I do? I've tried very hard not to feel sad after so many years gone. But, I can't do that. I've tried a couple of times. And I failed.
I misses you so deep. Each year. Each every year - without fail. I wondered, how good my life is right now if you've been with me here. I definitely know that you are the one who can goes and listern all my ups and downs all day and night and wont complain. How on earth I can get the same you, you?
I've tried to look for one. I can travel far just to hang out with him. But the feeling was never the same I had from you. Maybe I should continue to hunt until I find the right you? Can I?
:(
Somehow, I've slept at 5.15am yesterday night. No! It's morning. It's consider I slept at 5.15am today! And I rushed out the things that need to be prepared. And, here I am. Finally!
Around 4am this morning. It rains. And I've remembered that is Ching Ming month. Damn, flash back everything again while working. Yes, Indeed I misses you - once again. What can I do? I've tried very hard not to feel sad after so many years gone. But, I can't do that. I've tried a couple of times. And I failed.
I misses you so deep. Each year. Each every year - without fail. I wondered, how good my life is right now if you've been with me here. I definitely know that you are the one who can goes and listern all my ups and downs all day and night and wont complain. How on earth I can get the same you, you?
I've tried to look for one. I can travel far just to hang out with him. But the feeling was never the same I had from you. Maybe I should continue to hunt until I find the right you? Can I?
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Again, To Justin Tham
Ching Ming started this month. Last week was the official day. But, I didn't make it, So I went there on 09 April (Sat).
Usually, my godbro or my ex-bf will take me go. But this time, I do not wish to trouble anyone except for asking Ken to accompany me. He was there being 1st time too. We lost some of the tracks and been going alot of Tolls. Lolx.
Back to Justin, Here's for you.
Bought everything on yesterday night when I was having my dinner. The thing that catches my eyes is the RED BMW-M3 Convertible -2008 model. And straight away, I buy these things for you.
Early morning, started to unwrap all the plastic bags and taking photos for my memory of the things I bought for you. As I do not wish to buy again the same thing. Wish to buy different kind of things when I visit you. Below are the things I bought. Cost me RM96 if not mistaken. But, as I always mention, money doesnt matter. At least Justin can receive it, I will work double hard to get money and give him the needs. I dont care if others said - all this are bullshit. But, what I care is - I TRY.
Previously, I remember I bought you kinda old fashionable uncle style. I don't have much choice though. But this time, I played smart and ask the Uncle to have me see the younger generation. And I choosen this kind of style.
Not bad what. Got Lacost brand. You can show it off neh..Bought some fashionable - intrend kind of style. Wish you wear it comfortable
and also, one of the tee come together with jeans. Is good. At least, you don't run half naked at the bottom.
Bought sports and formal shoe for you. This is the BEST I can choose.
I forgot to buy you snacks. Sorry. Next time ok. In here, bought you 12cans of carlsberg, few packs of cigarettes. I talk to the aunty to have Marlbaro. She said takda, so I keep on digging the box..until I saw one only left. And I grab this pack together.
Tada...this is the car that catched my attention on the 1st place. 1st think, I tot, U must be very very happy to receive this sports car.
Got passport and Credit Card Visa for you. Last two years, I bought you one. I think it's already expired. So, I bought another new one for you. Wish you could travel places you wished to travel before when you're here.
And also..do not know what type of money you prefered. So I gave in the US Dollar and some other old style of money with gold and silver plus cheque book too..
There you go. everything was packed in a box..But..this is not all..Still got money beside me..and started to put all the gold and silver in the end.
Reached Nirvana about 12.30pm. Do not know how to write his chinese name, and asked people around for a help. Luckily one of the family member helped us.
Ken helped me to write the chinese wording. And, now..I snapped this image and keep it in future.
Justin, all this is for you. Hope you really have it right now.
Do support us for this coming weekend on the Mines. Hope I can manage it well. Let me know when you pay me a visit. Will be freaking happy to see the signs ^^
Love always.
Xter
Usually, my godbro or my ex-bf will take me go. But this time, I do not wish to trouble anyone except for asking Ken to accompany me. He was there being 1st time too. We lost some of the tracks and been going alot of Tolls. Lolx.
Back to Justin, Here's for you.
Bought everything on yesterday night when I was having my dinner. The thing that catches my eyes is the RED BMW-M3 Convertible -2008 model. And straight away, I buy these things for you.
Early morning, started to unwrap all the plastic bags and taking photos for my memory of the things I bought for you. As I do not wish to buy again the same thing. Wish to buy different kind of things when I visit you. Below are the things I bought. Cost me RM96 if not mistaken. But, as I always mention, money doesnt matter. At least Justin can receive it, I will work double hard to get money and give him the needs. I dont care if others said - all this are bullshit. But, what I care is - I TRY.
Previously, I remember I bought you kinda old fashionable uncle style. I don't have much choice though. But this time, I played smart and ask the Uncle to have me see the younger generation. And I choosen this kind of style.
Not bad what. Got Lacost brand. You can show it off neh..Bought some fashionable - intrend kind of style. Wish you wear it comfortable
and also, one of the tee come together with jeans. Is good. At least, you don't run half naked at the bottom.
Bought sports and formal shoe for you. This is the BEST I can choose.
I forgot to buy you snacks. Sorry. Next time ok. In here, bought you 12cans of carlsberg, few packs of cigarettes. I talk to the aunty to have Marlbaro. She said takda, so I keep on digging the box..until I saw one only left. And I grab this pack together.
Tada...this is the car that catched my attention on the 1st place. 1st think, I tot, U must be very very happy to receive this sports car.
You and me just the same. Both of us love 2 cars. Though I dont have lotsa money, but yet, I bought myself Satria Neo. Is the cheaper car that is only 2 doors. And since, for you, I know you must be quite hard to get it, So I buy for you yeah. Surprise rite?
Remember, don't drive fast. Drive save instead. Go tackle girls with this hero together! I'm sure you already have one by now.
Remember, don't drive fast. Drive save instead. Go tackle girls with this hero together! I'm sure you already have one by now.
Got passport and Credit Card Visa for you. Last two years, I bought you one. I think it's already expired. So, I bought another new one for you. Wish you could travel places you wished to travel before when you're here.
And also..do not know what type of money you prefered. So I gave in the US Dollar and some other old style of money with gold and silver plus cheque book too..
There you go. everything was packed in a box..But..this is not all..Still got money beside me..and started to put all the gold and silver in the end.
Reached Nirvana about 12.30pm. Do not know how to write his chinese name, and asked people around for a help. Luckily one of the family member helped us.
Ken helped me to write the chinese wording. And, now..I snapped this image and keep it in future.
Justin, all this is for you. Hope you really have it right now.
As what I talked with you this afternoon, hope you understand me. I really don't know why I cry all of a sudden. I was being happy that I could come and visit you. But never know, when I saw your face image, I started to cry and thinks of the moment we shared together.
As always, I hated you for leaving me so early. Counted, and it's been 5years already. You still young, yet...yet..I HATE you alot!!
As always, I hated you for leaving me so early. Counted, and it's been 5years already. You still young, yet...yet..I HATE you alot!!
Love always.
Xter
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Message to you again
Dear Justin,
Bi ah bi...just passed two days ago, your mother called me up while I was having lunch. Then she invited me to attend your sister's wedding dinner PLUS to be your sister's *chee mui. I was taken a-back. Of cause I couldn't say NO on spot right? So I agreed and say YES instead. And will gonna visit her this coming saturday - which is TODAY lor at 12pm. Thought of considering about the *Chee mui status. I will ask her whether your sister actually have other friends to help out or not. Cause I'm worried about two things only. One is because your mother hope me to join sama, as part of your family celebration happiness. Second, is either your sister dont have close friend to be *Chee mui lor. But I think, is the 1st part...where your mom would like to ask me to attend both of the morning and dinner session.
Worst is...I dont know your sister eh...I just met her few times. Maybe 2times the most. So abit gam gai if I go on her wedding day. If only I knew your sister the 1st day that I knew you, then the story might go in different way. But, anyway...I do ask wykie to be backup. Cause I do not know whom I can ask to go with me. Collage fren? No. Colleague? No.. Secondary school fren? - who do you know? Besides Ah sian and Devi? Even, when I mix with you.. I mix with your guys mate. I dont even have a chance to mix with your females mates lea. None lea.... Ahhh..so pai seh lea.
Anyway, tomorrow will be visiting your mummy. This is SO Confirm! And I will definitely let my alarm to be set too.
12pm...12pm... - SURE CAN WAKE UP!!! Though now is already 2:27am joh...hahaha...
Getting you...I wish you CONGRATULATION eh!! For your sister's marriage. Hopping you will attend and be happy for your sister ok.
Miss you lotx!!
ps: btw.. is wykie is not those *backup plans ok..Is just that I want to bring someone along that knows you or related with you. But in girls wise... I couldn't think of anyone joh.. Maybe, I just bring all Maxiimpact people...then we will play a very fullfilling happiness for your sister. But later..I go gather information 1st...will be informing you ya.. Don't worry...
Bi ah bi...just passed two days ago, your mother called me up while I was having lunch. Then she invited me to attend your sister's wedding dinner PLUS to be your sister's *chee mui. I was taken a-back. Of cause I couldn't say NO on spot right? So I agreed and say YES instead. And will gonna visit her this coming saturday - which is TODAY lor at 12pm. Thought of considering about the *Chee mui status. I will ask her whether your sister actually have other friends to help out or not. Cause I'm worried about two things only. One is because your mother hope me to join sama, as part of your family celebration happiness. Second, is either your sister dont have close friend to be *Chee mui lor. But I think, is the 1st part...where your mom would like to ask me to attend both of the morning and dinner session.
Worst is...I dont know your sister eh...I just met her few times. Maybe 2times the most. So abit gam gai if I go on her wedding day. If only I knew your sister the 1st day that I knew you, then the story might go in different way. But, anyway...I do ask wykie to be backup. Cause I do not know whom I can ask to go with me. Collage fren? No. Colleague? No.. Secondary school fren? - who do you know? Besides Ah sian and Devi? Even, when I mix with you.. I mix with your guys mate. I dont even have a chance to mix with your females mates lea. None lea.... Ahhh..so pai seh lea.
Anyway, tomorrow will be visiting your mummy. This is SO Confirm! And I will definitely let my alarm to be set too.
12pm...12pm... - SURE CAN WAKE UP!!! Though now is already 2:27am joh...hahaha...
Getting you...I wish you CONGRATULATION eh!! For your sister's marriage. Hopping you will attend and be happy for your sister ok.
Miss you lotx!!
ps: btw.. is wykie is not those *backup plans ok..Is just that I want to bring someone along that knows you or related with you. But in girls wise... I couldn't think of anyone joh.. Maybe, I just bring all Maxiimpact people...then we will play a very fullfilling happiness for your sister. But later..I go gather information 1st...will be informing you ya.. Don't worry...
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Ching Ming
Dear Justin,That's what I wanna ask you.
Got my pressie?? Saw my baby neo?? Nice not? Pretty not?? U like it?
Thanks to Fatty for bringing me to Nirvana. Though I'm not easy to recognize that road, but at least I did make my effort to drive Baby Neo to meet Justin.
It was last sunday, I bought stuff for Justin. Esp MONEY! I know he might need money more than anything. Even bought a set box of mobiles for him. That set mobile is not bad. Got Sony Erricson, which include high-tech 3G. Goodness. He can show off to his buddies liao. Somemore, I did bought Cig from 7-11 for him. Know he likes Marlboro filter, but ..nah... I prefer him to smoke light.
Drove to Nirvana, took me... I also forgot how many hours to reach there. Countless. But who cares? At least we're safe arrive there and I can meet him - that's what I hope for.
I light up the colok and later on, burn the packaging for him. Fatty helped me out. Both of us wore black, and it's sux. Weather was pretty hot. Burn man.
Justin, Smoke Less, Your Fren.
Justin, I Miss You, Your Fren
Making sure everything was really burn to ash.
After everything was done. Fire slowly to subside, fade off. I began my path to walk to Justin's ash place. Fatty went out to buy some drinks (since there is NO SHOPS! Just ice-cream man). I talked to Justin for quite some time.
Bi, did you hear me? Did you really sees me? I wanna talk with you alot lot more. But there was a small child standing next to me, talking with you. She might think that I'm talking to walls like those insane person. Luckily she not tell her mommy saying "mummy, mummy... you see this jie jie. She talk with the dead people. Can we do that the same to grandpa and grandma??" Hah!
Full of joy.
Full of sorrow.
Seeing you left me behind far far away from you. Away from your distance. How long can I keep on going without you by myside? It hurts alot. Though I told myself I have to let you go, bits by bits. But can I?
You know, r'ber once we watch Shutter - the thai version in Maxi? Well, you were pretty afraid of what you saw. And since there is English version, I tot I might enjoy myself with fatty (which I bought him the other day to meet you) and hoping you were there right beside me enjoying the movie together. But were you there that moment?
I hold my tears not to cry. Just have a rough talk with you. But before I left, Before I close the door right infront of your face. I stare at your picture for not more than 10secs and I begin to cry. I dunno. Somehow tears just drops and starting to flow like rives. I try hold back, but couldnt. And kept asking you, WHY THE HELL YOU LEFT ME???
It's so pain you know. We share everything. You're the one who still keep in touch with me since we graduate. You're the one who willing to help me in photoshop. You're teh one who always there to cheer me up, fuck with each other, slam each other. But now? Where are you?
You really giving me a hard time. Been 2yrs you left. Your age still younger than mine, and it will never be change. IS SO UNFAIR, you know???????
But after visiting you. We went to you mother's place. You mum, OF COZ still cant forget about you. R'be rthe small baby boy you like to be with him? He grew adi. He's in kindagarden now. He's shy and cool when he 1st met him. I kept saying helo, hie, helo to him, but you know what I get at last? ZERO. He aint making friends with me. Nor smile or at least say Hie to me. None.
Your mum gave me see your baby photos. Even the time you attend for your 1st sista wedding day. You look cool. Aint smile also. So, when I flash back my dreams which you surprisingly gave it to me. I am PROUD OF MYSELF. Which you gave me a dream I cant forget. The way you actual smile at the camera. It's the most beautiful and chariming face I ever see, that even glow behind you. Is such a fairytale.
Somemore, after an hour and half. That small boy started to come near me. Taking out his books, flipping pages to let me see. Showing me that he's intelligent and have LOTS OF STARS AND A'S. He's clever boy. He luv to colour stuff as well. His skills are not bad. Your mummy say, everyone in the house aint like him, xcept for you. Cuz u will always protect and be always beside him and give all your love to him. Now, you're gone. He have no place to for a cry shoulder.
He's cute. Adorable. He took out toys from his room. One by one he's taking out his plush toys, vehicals, everything. Showing off to me that he got lots of stuff to play. AKA. Even I saw the Chicken Little was on top of the rak. I told your mum that we bought it together with wykie at Mc.D. Buy 2, but instead that stupid waiter gave another one. Means we have total of 3. One of us own one. And my chicken Little is still with me.
Your mum say, she's ok especially if the two children were there with her. Cause children can bring laughter and make the environment go messy. Oh ya. Ah Bi got one little bro. 1yr and half if not mistaken. He's same as you. Like to ban leng leng. His mum say, if he aint wearing any nice baby tee, he will not go out and will stamp around to have better clothes putted on. He's fashionable.
But if the two children were bought back to d'sara. Then your mum will starting to think of you. Cause you're the only child who can bring happiness to your family. Your mum even say you wanna pierce your ear and tattoo your body (and I know you envy of my tattoo) and guess what? She's regret that she didnt let you do it. She say, she suppose to let you do whatever you want. So, hope you wont blame your mum ok. She loves you deep down. Only sometimes you cant see it right infront of your eyes.
Your mum got ask me whether you have GF or not. And I started to tell her your story regarding you wanna tackle the gurl, who work at the bra shop. I r'ber you said you accidentally saw her changing her bra, and you looked EVERYTHING! Shit la. Your air liur is still dropping.
Well, your mum knows taht u fancy this girl alot. Even the girl tell you to smoke less, and your mum say it's good coz it's for your OWN GOOD. But I still r'ber that your mum forbid you to have any relationship with her since she's born under tiger and you're under boar and it's aint gonna merge together. But I sees your mum is fine with that girl oh?!
Anyway, it's past.
And another news is. WHY i'm not having any lump or breast cancer huh????? How come? I wish to have it. I wish to die slowly. I wish to leave this world quitely. But why GOD aint granting my WISH? Sometimes I'm sick of my life. The everyday doings. I wanna get over it. I've been talking and blogging and bubbling since I was young, till now. Anyhow, I'm having a slight operation next month. Doc say it's better to take and test some of my inner tissue for double confirmation. Huh. I tot of not going. My mum kept on telling over and over again - XTER DONT THROW THE PAPER!!! XTER NEXT MONTH IS YOUR APPOINTMENT! XTER KEEP THE PAPER PROPERLY. YOU HAVE TO GO CHECKUP TO MAKE SURE OF EVERYTHING.
Nag. How long can I continue to take this? Know she worried la. But she's over worried. But she's a good mum also. She will make one warm marmite for me before I went to sleep.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Backstreet Boys - Unbreakable
Backstreet Boys Full Album
Unbreakable - download
Unbreakable Song Lists
1. Intro
2. Everything But Mine
3. Inconsolable
4. Something That I Already Know
5. Helpless When She Smiles
6. Panic
7. You Can Let Go
8. One In A Million
9. Trouble Is
10. Any Other Way
11. Treat Me Right
12. Love Will Keep You Up All Night
13. Nowhere To Go (Bonus Track)
14. Unsuspecting Sunday Afternoon
15. Downpour (Bonus Track)
16. Unmistakable
17. In Pieces (Bonus Track)
Dear Justin,
Know you luv to hear Backstreet Boys. Even if you dont have money, You will go buy original of their song. Thru, I'm not a big fan of them, but every single day I will open the downloaded mp3 and listern to their latest songs. Hope you - yourself will enjoy as I do right now.
God bless,
and...
I will always miss you.
** The songs I like in this album is:
• Something That I Already Know
• Helpless When She Smiles
• You Can Let Go
LYRICS
Something That I Already Know
Here we are
Seven days
And seven nights of empty tries
This ritual's, habitual,
But it's never gonna work this time
We're to the point of no return
And along the way the only thing we've learned
Is how to hurt each other
I'm looking back
And wondering why
It took so long to realize
That nothing's changed
It never will
All these years of standing still
Still we'll stay in all this pain
And nothing's gonna make it go away
I don't wanna wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind
Baby you're not in it
We're not what we used to be,
No you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't wanna wait another minute
To hear...
Something that I already know
I know I know I know
Something that I already know
I know I know I know
So save your voice
Don't waste your breath
Can't you see we're at the end
And this goodbye, feels permanent,
So wish me well, try to forget
All the fights
And all the ways
We almost made it
But we never did
And it's finally come to this
I don't wanna wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind
Baby you're not in it
We're not what we used to be,
No you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't wanna wait another minute
To hear
Something that I already know
We can not hide
What we've become
So sick and tired of being dumb,
It's done
It's done
It's done
I don't wanna wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind
Baby you're not in it
We're not what we used to be,
No you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't wanna wait another minute
To hear
Something that I already know
I know I know I know
Something that I already know
Cause I know I know I know
Something that I already know
Cause I know I know I know
I know cause I know
Helpless When She Smiles
She keeps the secrets in her eyes
She wraps the truth inside her lies
And just when I can't take what she's done to me
She comes to me
And leads me back to paradise
She's so hard to hold
But I can't let go
I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She dances away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles (oh when she smiles.. she smiles..)
Maybe I'd fight it if I could
It hurts so bad, but feels so good
She opens up just like a rose to me
When she's close to me
Anything she asked me to, I would
She's out of control
But I can't let go
I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She dances away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles (oh no.. when she smiles..)
When she looks at me (When she looks at me)
I get so weak (weak)
I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She dances away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles (oh when she smiles... when she smiles.. she smiles.....)
You Can Let Go
[AJ:]
I can see in your eyes
Broken windows, fallen skies
Baby, baby what you hidin' from
The light that followed you around
Lately nowhere to be found
Don't you know that I'm your place to run
[Brian:]
You been holding on so long
Tryin' to make believe that nothing's wrong
Not letting it show
And there ain't nothing you can do
To make me turn away from you
I need you to know
[Howie:]
That you can let go
[AJ:]
Sifting through shattered dreams
Livin' in the in between
Baby, babe it's gonna be alright
(You can let go)
When you're lost, let down, disappointed
And jerked around in this cold, cold world
I will always be by your side
[Nick:]
You been holding on so long
Tryin' to make believe that nothing's wrong
Not letting it show
There ain't nothin' you can do
To make me turn away from you
I need you to know
[Howie:]
That you can let go
[AJ:]
Don't be afraid when you're falling apart
Don't hesitate I'll be right where you are
Open your eyes there's a crack in the dark
[Brian:]
You never let me see you cry
You locked it somewhere deep inside
Baby, baby let me hold you tight
[Howie:]
Make it alright
[All:]
Baby, baby gonna be alright
Cause I'm by your side
When the whole world turns against you (I won't turn against you)
Not letting it show
Baby, babe gonna be alright
Cause I'm by your side
When the whole world turns against you
You can let go
[Nick/All:]
You been holding on so long
Tryin' to make believe that nothing's wrong
Not letting it show
You can let go
There ain't nothing you can do
To make me turn away from you
I need you to know
Unbreakable - download
Unbreakable Song Lists
1. Intro
2. Everything But Mine
3. Inconsolable
4. Something That I Already Know
5. Helpless When She Smiles
6. Panic
7. You Can Let Go
8. One In A Million
9. Trouble Is
10. Any Other Way
11. Treat Me Right
12. Love Will Keep You Up All Night
13. Nowhere To Go (Bonus Track)
14. Unsuspecting Sunday Afternoon
15. Downpour (Bonus Track)
16. Unmistakable
17. In Pieces (Bonus Track)
Dear Justin,
Know you luv to hear Backstreet Boys. Even if you dont have money, You will go buy original of their song. Thru, I'm not a big fan of them, but every single day I will open the downloaded mp3 and listern to their latest songs. Hope you - yourself will enjoy as I do right now.
God bless,
and...
I will always miss you.
** The songs I like in this album is:
• Something That I Already Know
• Helpless When She Smiles
• You Can Let Go
LYRICS
Something That I Already Know
Here we are
Seven days
And seven nights of empty tries
This ritual's, habitual,
But it's never gonna work this time
We're to the point of no return
And along the way the only thing we've learned
Is how to hurt each other
I'm looking back
And wondering why
It took so long to realize
That nothing's changed
It never will
All these years of standing still
Still we'll stay in all this pain
And nothing's gonna make it go away
I don't wanna wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind
Baby you're not in it
We're not what we used to be,
No you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't wanna wait another minute
To hear...
Something that I already know
I know I know I know
Something that I already know
I know I know I know
So save your voice
Don't waste your breath
Can't you see we're at the end
And this goodbye, feels permanent,
So wish me well, try to forget
All the fights
And all the ways
We almost made it
But we never did
And it's finally come to this
I don't wanna wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind
Baby you're not in it
We're not what we used to be,
No you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't wanna wait another minute
To hear
Something that I already know
We can not hide
What we've become
So sick and tired of being dumb,
It's done
It's done
It's done
I don't wanna wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind
Baby you're not in it
We're not what we used to be,
No you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't wanna wait another minute
To hear
Something that I already know
I know I know I know
Something that I already know
Cause I know I know I know
Something that I already know
Cause I know I know I know
I know cause I know
Helpless When She Smiles
She keeps the secrets in her eyes
She wraps the truth inside her lies
And just when I can't take what she's done to me
She comes to me
And leads me back to paradise
She's so hard to hold
But I can't let go
I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She dances away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles (oh when she smiles.. she smiles..)
Maybe I'd fight it if I could
It hurts so bad, but feels so good
She opens up just like a rose to me
When she's close to me
Anything she asked me to, I would
She's out of control
But I can't let go
I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She dances away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles (oh no.. when she smiles..)
When she looks at me (When she looks at me)
I get so weak (weak)
I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She dances away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles (oh when she smiles... when she smiles.. she smiles.....)
You Can Let Go
[AJ:]
I can see in your eyes
Broken windows, fallen skies
Baby, baby what you hidin' from
The light that followed you around
Lately nowhere to be found
Don't you know that I'm your place to run
[Brian:]
You been holding on so long
Tryin' to make believe that nothing's wrong
Not letting it show
And there ain't nothing you can do
To make me turn away from you
I need you to know
[Howie:]
That you can let go
[AJ:]
Sifting through shattered dreams
Livin' in the in between
Baby, babe it's gonna be alright
(You can let go)
When you're lost, let down, disappointed
And jerked around in this cold, cold world
I will always be by your side
[Nick:]
You been holding on so long
Tryin' to make believe that nothing's wrong
Not letting it show
There ain't nothin' you can do
To make me turn away from you
I need you to know
[Howie:]
That you can let go
[AJ:]
Don't be afraid when you're falling apart
Don't hesitate I'll be right where you are
Open your eyes there's a crack in the dark
[Brian:]
You never let me see you cry
You locked it somewhere deep inside
Baby, baby let me hold you tight
[Howie:]
Make it alright
[All:]
Baby, baby gonna be alright
Cause I'm by your side
When the whole world turns against you (I won't turn against you)
Not letting it show
Baby, babe gonna be alright
Cause I'm by your side
When the whole world turns against you
You can let go
[Nick/All:]
You been holding on so long
Tryin' to make believe that nothing's wrong
Not letting it show
You can let go
There ain't nothing you can do
To make me turn away from you
I need you to know
Monday, June 25, 2007
Visiting Justin @ Nirvana
Bi, How are you? Did you received my stuff??? Did you eat your KFC? I wanna buy pizza for you de. Cause got discount. RM7++. Cause serve for one people, including water also. But the cashier told me that it's eat-in. So, I went downstairs and bought KFC for you instead.
June got bought flowers for you. Nice rite? She said, you can tackle more gurls up there liao, since the flower is such a big bunch lea. Happy not?
See.. I keep my promise that will come visit you this weekend. Though I came at noon, but at least I came ya. Somemore Hahaha.. I bought lots of things for you. Oh ya, Dou bought you fruits. Actually I wanna buy the fruits for you de lor, but since hard to find parking, Dou got down and bought for me. I wanna pay back, but he dont want. So it's consider him to buy it for you. Happy not? Those stuff I bought for you is Dou an bro help me de. But design, I choose ya. No matter wut, I still aim at those money!!!!! That's why I took two packet of those folded money. And few millions for you. You know? I saw those RM1, RM10 lea. I wanna give to you also. But sked you not enough to use, so I burn those 1million - 1 piece - with few pieces also. So, You will be quite rich up there ya. Somemore, the guy told me that got passport, cheque... Wah!!!! I told him, the cheque - should I sign it? He laugh and say "No need la". Passport lea!!! So nice... Then give you lots of those papers... I dont know what is that. It's like living in a better life and faster "thau toi". Then bought clothes and sport shoe for you. I saw one coat. Wanna give you also, So you can go casino liao. But .... next time ok.
Bro said next time buy you blue film woh.. He wanna kena you liao. You better be careful. Haha. Then, If I got extra money, I buy you DVD, TV, and Playstation ya.
Ughhh.. Miss you badly..... Have a Better life ahead ok..
How I wish I really know the way to Nirvana there. So I can come find you and talk with you. That time I came and talk to you, Are you bside me? I talk alot huh??? Complain alot huh? I wanna continue talking, and you can see, bro came in and ask me pray for you outside. So i did. I will hold my colok for you, my grandma and my lil one only. That's all.
Oh ya... I gave you one mirror. I put beside to the comb there. If pantang, Tell me ok.
Miss you...
June got bought flowers for you. Nice rite? She said, you can tackle more gurls up there liao, since the flower is such a big bunch lea. Happy not?
See.. I keep my promise that will come visit you this weekend. Though I came at noon, but at least I came ya. Somemore Hahaha.. I bought lots of things for you. Oh ya, Dou bought you fruits. Actually I wanna buy the fruits for you de lor, but since hard to find parking, Dou got down and bought for me. I wanna pay back, but he dont want. So it's consider him to buy it for you. Happy not? Those stuff I bought for you is Dou an bro help me de. But design, I choose ya. No matter wut, I still aim at those money!!!!! That's why I took two packet of those folded money. And few millions for you. You know? I saw those RM1, RM10 lea. I wanna give to you also. But sked you not enough to use, so I burn those 1million - 1 piece - with few pieces also. So, You will be quite rich up there ya. Somemore, the guy told me that got passport, cheque... Wah!!!! I told him, the cheque - should I sign it? He laugh and say "No need la". Passport lea!!! So nice... Then give you lots of those papers... I dont know what is that. It's like living in a better life and faster "thau toi". Then bought clothes and sport shoe for you. I saw one coat. Wanna give you also, So you can go casino liao. But .... next time ok.
Bro said next time buy you blue film woh.. He wanna kena you liao. You better be careful. Haha. Then, If I got extra money, I buy you DVD, TV, and Playstation ya.
Ughhh.. Miss you badly..... Have a Better life ahead ok..
How I wish I really know the way to Nirvana there. So I can come find you and talk with you. That time I came and talk to you, Are you bside me? I talk alot huh??? Complain alot huh? I wanna continue talking, and you can see, bro came in and ask me pray for you outside. So i did. I will hold my colok for you, my grandma and my lil one only. That's all.
Oh ya... I gave you one mirror. I put beside to the comb there. If pantang, Tell me ok.
Miss you...
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Happy Burfday Justin
Ah Bi.... HAPPY BURFDAY !!!!!! Your BIG BIG day today!!! I wished you at 12.04am Today. Guess many people got wished you also.
You know? Your mum the other day called me. Urm, let me recall. It's Monday noon. They shifted to - Kepong area liao. Opposite Carrefour. I will go and visit her after I go pay a visit for you ok. Definately will go this weekend - Sunday is the best time.
Well, she asked me whether am I married liao. I laughed. Of cause not so fast ya. New relationship just started. Maybe she don't know. Then she asked me whether I got dream about you or not. I said no more, since you gave me 2 sweet dreams last year. I wanna ask for more!!!!! You give your parents dream of you ner. Me lea?? Why dont have liao arR??? I wan dream of you also. At least once a year. Hiak Hiak. I'm so greedy huh. Okok.. Just a joke. I wont force. If you want to come inside my dream, you are already welcome. My dream door always open for you to come in de.
You know? I just know that Ting Fung will goin to start another new movie!!!! I'm so excited ner. Wah... can watch liao.
Then hor, another movie called "Alone", director from "Shutter" will be release tomolo. I still remember we both watch Shutter at Maxi. You sat behind me, look so scary. Then when you went to the loo, I already prepare and waited you outside the toilet. Then you opened the door and got frighten. Scream and start chasing me. My God!! I run. If I'm a ghost, I run also when I see you scream and somemore, YOU DARE TO CHASE GHOST AR!!! Not bad not bad!
So, when I come. What you want ar?? Cig, Beer, den?? Gurls wan ar? Korean? Japanese?? Msian? Urm.. Msian gurls for you is cheap liao. I guess you prefer overseas gurls eh? Of cause No la! I wont buy gurls for you. Foreva let you be single, who tell you go so fast then mua. Huh!
Okok, somemore.. what you want ar?? KFC??? Pizza? Urm.. Guess I buy Pizza for you. Cause Pizza got offer. Hahaha.. What's more you want? Yea..definately will fire you money. Dont worry k.
I gotta get back to work. Take Care, I miss you alot.. Real LOT!
You know? Your mum the other day called me. Urm, let me recall. It's Monday noon. They shifted to - Kepong area liao. Opposite Carrefour. I will go and visit her after I go pay a visit for you ok. Definately will go this weekend - Sunday is the best time.
Well, she asked me whether am I married liao. I laughed. Of cause not so fast ya. New relationship just started. Maybe she don't know. Then she asked me whether I got dream about you or not. I said no more, since you gave me 2 sweet dreams last year. I wanna ask for more!!!!! You give your parents dream of you ner. Me lea?? Why dont have liao arR??? I wan dream of you also. At least once a year. Hiak Hiak. I'm so greedy huh. Okok.. Just a joke. I wont force. If you want to come inside my dream, you are already welcome. My dream door always open for you to come in de.
You know? I just know that Ting Fung will goin to start another new movie!!!! I'm so excited ner. Wah... can watch liao.
Then hor, another movie called "Alone", director from "Shutter" will be release tomolo. I still remember we both watch Shutter at Maxi. You sat behind me, look so scary. Then when you went to the loo, I already prepare and waited you outside the toilet. Then you opened the door and got frighten. Scream and start chasing me. My God!! I run. If I'm a ghost, I run also when I see you scream and somemore, YOU DARE TO CHASE GHOST AR!!! Not bad not bad!
So, when I come. What you want ar?? Cig, Beer, den?? Gurls wan ar? Korean? Japanese?? Msian? Urm.. Msian gurls for you is cheap liao. I guess you prefer overseas gurls eh? Of cause No la! I wont buy gurls for you. Foreva let you be single, who tell you go so fast then mua. Huh!
Okok, somemore.. what you want ar?? KFC??? Pizza? Urm.. Guess I buy Pizza for you. Cause Pizza got offer. Hahaha.. What's more you want? Yea..definately will fire you money. Dont worry k.
I gotta get back to work. Take Care, I miss you alot.. Real LOT!
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